Mood: Apprehensive. Trigger: Impulsively make plans to go to the gym with Fiance every Sunday. Actions: Review my decision carefully, and see if I feel the same in the morning. I hate exercise. I always have and I can’t ever see a version of me that enjoys putting my body through hell with any formContinue reading “The Masks We Wear”
Monthly Archives: Jan 2020
Wedding Blues
Mood: Irritable. Trigger: The mother-in-law. Actions: Journal all the angry thoughts, try to cool down, and have a serious conversation with the Fiance when my mood is stable. I hate my mother-in-law. She is critical, insensitive and pushy. I could write an entire book about my feeling towards my mother-in-law. Despite my feelings towards her,Continue reading “Wedding Blues”
Children and BPD
Mood: Anxious. Trigger: Thinking about seeing Fiance’s mother later, who has asked us in the past *when* are we going to have children. Actions: Journal all the bad thoughts and feelings, and listen to uplifting music. I have a complicated relationship with the subject of children. I have a First Class degree in childhood studies,Continue reading “Children and BPD”
A Small Victory
Mood: Rage. Trigger: Writing long blog post that accidentally gets deleted, and no autosave draft to fall back on. Actions: Breathing exercise to combat rage. Well since the last draft of this entry was deleted (thank you WordPress for not backing up the save), here I go again… I was recently fired from my jobContinue reading “A Small Victory”
Hobbies with BPD
Whenever I start a new project or take up a new hobby, the Mania side of my BPD kicks into overdrive. My mind races with all the exciting possibilities this hobby has to offer. I imagine taking part in this hobby for years to come. I imagine how I can fit this hobby into myContinue reading “Hobbies with BPD”
About Me
Twenty-something year old girl with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Recently unemployed Will Writer, mother of two beautiful dogs, and fiance to a great non-BPD having partner. I will talk a lot about my experiences with BPD, but it’s worth noting that I have also been diagnosed with Mixed Depressive & Anxiety Disorder. I’m writing thisContinue reading “About Me”
A Girl With BPD 